Album: Still Searching (2006)

"The Rapture"

I waited for the light to come
to change my life, to change my life
But I am blind, my faith is gone
I'm finding out the good book was wrong

And I must face
that I won't be saved

We're destined to all die alone
I buried my cross with a rose
I won't kneel at your alter now that I know
It's a table for a magic show

I'm getting up from off my knees
the guilt is gone and I can finally breathe
But there is not a plan for me
You're making my tired ears bleed

And you can pray
But I won't be saved

We're destined to all die alone
I buried my cross with a rose
I won't kneel at your alter now that I know
It's a table for a magic show

"Bonecrusher"

I feel the city breathe at night
Beneath the stars and neon lights
And I've got nothing to lose

Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness

The streets outside, they burn with life
But I am dead on the inside
I think these pills are to blame

Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness

And I've got romantic ideas
But they're not meant for you
And my bed's filled with
Black roses to show that our love is through

I hope the fire licks my lips
And pulls me close against her hips
This town will go down in flames

Drink up, drink up, drink up the loneliness
Drink up, drink up, drink up the loneliness

And I've got romantic ideas
But they're not meant for you
And my bed's filled with
Black roses to show that our love is through

Like a broken mirror
They're pieces of me
Like a broken mirror
They're pieces of me
They're pieces of me
They're pieces of me now

Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
Drink up (drink up) drink up my lonely
Drink up my lonely
Drink up
Drink up the loneliness

"Sick Or Sane (Fifty For A Twenty)"

Take me to a hotel room
And tie me to the bed of my mistakes
Kiss me like I paid for this
Please don't stop till you've raped all my faith

And the white coats, just don't get it,
I'm a genius, with a headache.
And the white coats, just don't get it,
I'm a genius, with a headache.

Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick

I'm sorry I forgot your name
But this is the first time I've played this game
I know I made a big mistake
Paying you to suck out all my faith

And the white coats, just don't get it,
I'm a genius, with a headache.
And the white coats, just don't get it,
I'm a genius, with a headache.

Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick

She screams! (come and get some of this!)
She screams! (come and get some of this!)
She screams! (come and get some of this!)
She screams! (come and get some of this!)

And the white coats, just don't get it,
I'm a genius, with a headache.
And the white coats, just don't get it,
I'm a genius, with a headache.

Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick

She screams!
She screams!
She screams!
She screams!

"Can't Be Saved"

Follow your bliss, it reads on my chest.
I know I got it tattooed for a reason.
Why can't I just hold it true?
'Cause I'm still crashing all the funerals
Of these people that I never knew.
Yeah!

I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep.
And some day I will wake up and realize I made up everything.

I shut the door and turn all the lights out.
And listen to all the songs that the night shouts.
They go something just like this...
So go fill up a glass with tonic rocks and gin
and drink yourself to happiness.

I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep.
And some day I will wake up and realize I made up everything.

We can all hang ourselves from gold chandeliers.
And drink goodbye to all, all the pain and fears.
Loose lips have sunk this ship, to a shallow grave.
Washed up upon the rocks. I won't be saved. I won't be saved.

I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep.
And some day I will wake up and realize I gave up everything.

(I won't...) So follow your bliss, it reads on my chest. (...be saved.)
(I won't...) I know I got it tattooed for a reason. (...be saved.)
(I won't...) I shut the door and, turn all the lights out. (...be saved.)
(I won't...) And listen to all the songs that the night shouts. (...be saved.)

 "Calling All Cars"

Calling all cars we've got another victim
'Cause my love has become an affliction
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

I'm sorry but I think I failed to mention
That I lied at my very first confession
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

'Cause this has been building since I have been breathing
And I know how it's going to end

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You knew all along
Try to forget me and just move on

Oh my dear, what have I gone and done now?
It's curtain call, I'm about to take my last bow
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

Without giving away the entire ending
I ruined the evening again

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You knew all along
Try to forget me and just move on

I don't have love left inside, inside
And I don't have love left inside, inside
Are you desperate for an answer?
I don't have an ounce of good left in me now
That's why I walked out

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You hate me for it now
Try to forget me and just move on

I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
And do your best to forget my name

 "Shark Attack"

I've spent the last year paying a stranger to listen
To childhood thoughts about the love I am missing
I'd fallen for one of the oldest tricks in the book

The hooks were baited out with fear (The hooks were baited out with fear)
Because I wasn't thinking clear

Just save yourself
Cause it's too late for me.
Just save yourself
Cause I've lost everything.

Lying on the couch and spilling all of my guts out
Walking out with nothing but a head full of self doubt
I take back every good thing that I ever said

Cause it was all so meaningless (Cause it was all so meaningless)
It didn't help clean up my mess

Just save yourself
Cause it's too late for me
Just save yourself
Cause I lost everything

Now I see
You rip me open, ripped me up
Now I see
You rip me open, ripped me up

I spent the last full year of my life,
Asking the questions just to find out it was all a lie

Just save yourself
Cause it's too late for me.
Just save yourself
Cause I've lost everything.

Now I see (Now I see)
Now I see (Now I See)

"Still Searching"

I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears
On their salty lips
And said to them I love you all

I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
For 20 years and look at me now

I've got something to say
About the last 12 months I've lived
I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I just thought you should know
I take a pill every day
to help me deal with life

And oh my God, I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt
To feel at all

I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
For 20 years and look at me now

I've got something to say
About the family that I've lost
I hope my mother and my father think
That they raised a healthy boy
Who needs the help of a shrink
To even leave the house?

And oh my God, I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt
To feel at all

I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I just thought you
I just thought you should know

I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I just thought you
I just thought you should know

I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
For 20 years and look at me now
And now
And now
I'm finding a way to forget everything that I know

I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears
On their salty lips
And said to them I love you all

Don't ask, just follow
Repeat and swallow
Don't ask, just swallow them down your throat
Don't ask, just swallow
Repeat and follow
Don't ask, just swallow them down your throat

My best friend is a man, with a lab coat and a grin
I hold my shaking hand and he gives me medicine
It almost makes me feel at home
But they slowly steal my soul
I tell him I still feel alone
"Don't worry someday I promise you will feel whole"

And oh my God, I've lost control
Of the only thing in life
I had a hold of
And oh my God, I've lost control
Of the only thing in life
I had a hold of
And oh my God, I've lost control
Of the only thing in life
I had a hold of

 "To All The Crowded Rooms"

I don't lie
I love you all
I do
And to all of you dancing
Just don't be afraid to fall
It's true

We will capture you
in open arms
When you're tired and alone

My life is better than it ever was
My life is better than it ever was

And I'll give blood to your dry veins
We do this for the passion
and not for the fashion or fame

We will capture you
In open arms
When you're tired and alone

My life is better than it ever was
My life is better than it ever was

This could be your home when you're all alone
Tired and desperate
My life is better than it ever was

To all the crowded rooms I say you gave me a home anyway
To all the crowded rooms I say you gave me a home anyway
To all the crowded rooms I say you gave me a home anyway
To all the crowded rooms I say you gave me a home anyway

I'll give blood to your dry veins
I'll give blood to your dry veins (To your dry veins) (I'll give blood)
To all the crowded rooms that say (To your dry veins)
To all the crowded rooms that say (You gave me a home anyway)

My life is better than it ever was
My life is better than it ever was

This could be your home when you're all alone
Tired and desperate
This could be your home when you're all alone
Tired and desperate

 "Lost And Found"

This island has become
An ocean and my boat's too small
The waves are crashing in
And I can't save this sinking ship

I sent out signal flares
But no one out there seems to care
Now the voice inside my head
Is the only thing that I have left

This is the part where I'll admit
I'm getting what I deserve

And now I'm lost at sea
I'm drowning in what I won't be
I'm haunted by the sound (Sweet sound of my last breath)

Twenty days at sea
My skin is blistered from the heat
I can beg and I can plead
But what I get is never what I need

This is the part where I'll admit
I'm getting what I deserve

And now I'm lost at sea
I'm drowning in what I won't be
I'm haunted by the sound (Sweet sound of my last breath)

And now I'm lost at sea
I'm drowning in what I won't be
I'm haunted by the sound (Sweet sound of my last breath)

Whoa whoa
I'm going down I'm going down
Whoa whoa
I'm going down I'm going down

This is the part where I'll admit
I'm getting what I deserve

And now I'm lost at sea
I'm drowning in what I won't be
I'm haunted by the sound (Sweet sound of my last breath)

And now I'm lost at sea
I'm drowning in what I won't be
I'm haunted by the sound (Sweet sound of my last breath)

 "Every Day Is A Struggle"

I was the chapstick in your purse, to keep you smooth.
I was the finger in your throat, to keep you cute.
My liver hates you for walking out on us.
My kidney’s drowning in a pool of a long lost love.

I stole your perfume to spray in my room,
You will always be here.

So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I’m burning out my bedside,
And I’m rotting out my insides slowly.

I was the hand that held your hair back from your face.
Now I must forget the way you taste.

I stole your perfume to spray in my room,
You will always be here.

So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I’m burning out my bedside,
And I’m rotting out my insides slowly.

I love you so damn much; I’ll even start to pray.
I’ll put my faith in all your bullshit if it means you’ll stay.
[Repeat]

So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I’m burning out my bedside,
And I’m rotting out my insides,
I’m burning out my bedside,
And I’m rotting out my insides.

I love you so much, I started praying.
I love you so much that I started praying.
[Repeat]

 "All The Best Cowboys Have Daddy Issues"

(My father's sins are out tonight)
(My father's sins are out tonight)

I haven't seen him in years
I haven't seen him in years

(My mother's sins are out tonight)
(My mother's sins are out tonight)

I haven't loved her in years
I haven't loved her in years

Let's hear a toast for loneliness (Here's a toast for loneliness)
Sometimes it just makes so much sense (Sometimes it just makes so much sense)
For every night I drink alone (Every night I drink alone)
I'm happier than I could have ever known (I'm happier than I could have ever known)

(My family sins are out tonight)
(My family sins are out tonight)

My skin is on the run
My skin is on the run

(My private sins are out tonight)
(My private sins are out tonight)

My skin is on the run
My skin is on the run

I'm not waiting
I'm not waiting

Let's hear a toast for loneliness (Here's a toast for loneliness)
Sometimes it just makes so much sense (Sometimes it just makes so much sense)
For every night I drink alone (Every night I drink alone)
I'm happier than I could have ever known (I'm happier than I could have ever known)

I'm not waiting
I'm not waiting

I'm betting dreams upon my paper wings
Because flying isn't just for kings
I take the stairs to the very top floor
I paid the souper to leave open the door
A perfect sunset is sinking in the sky
I know my body is ready to fly
I start the countdown backwards from ten
When I reach one my family name will end

Falling down as windows pass I start to cry
And curse the day my parents laid
In a bed of hopelessness where love was made
Please mark my grave "Unknown"

Let's hear a toast for loneliness (Here's a toast for loneliness)
Sometimes it just makes so much sense (Sometimes it just makes so much sense)
For every night I drink alone (Every night I drink alone)
I'm happier than I could have ever known (I'm happier than I could have ever known)

Here I lie
Here I lie

 "The Priest And The Matador"

Here I lie
I'm staring at
Clouds in shapes of
Dogs and cats
I hear a woman
Start to yell
Oh dear God I
Think he fell

I'm the arrow
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down

A priest is rushing
To my side
Begins to read me
My last rites
Father you're too late
My faith is weak
So won't you save your
half-hearted speech

I'm the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down

A man bends down and says, "Son
we're gonna get through this one
take my hand and let us pray."
I scream, "Please get the fuck away."

I'm the arrow
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down

The ambulance is singing
As cops push back the crowd
I start to take my last breath
As blood pours out my mouth
The medics walk in my way
I think this could be it
I hear 'em start to state,
"The time of death is half past six."

I'm the arrow
Shot straight to hell
I'm the arrow
Shot straight to hell